I’m broken.
I was born into a complicated family which resulted in neglect. I was never taught self love.
In 2019, at the start of COVID, I lost my job as a steward at Ravens Hollow in Westfield, MA, a winery.
I waited patiently for a phone call as this was supposed to be temporary.
In May of 2020, I found myself hanging around a fire at Mariyas house, my best friend and asking myself what to do next. It was apparent by now that the temporary was no longer defined as such.
We were listening to music and dancing around the patio when I asked myself, “what should I do next”. I was inspired by the words “Write a book.” I don’t know, for sure, where it came from, but it did.
The words struck home and I knew I had a dance story to tell. I knew that, before I started, I would have to do some research.
The next day, at the bookstore, I saw “The Human Magnet Syndrome” by Ross Rosenberg. The title was perfect for the drama that I had hoped to write.
I went home and started to read. The story carried me to the chapter on codependency and it was a rude awakening.
The book in whole validated the ‘trap’ I had found myself in for the last 50+ years of my life. It explained things along a relationship continuum that balanced who I was with the people of whom I had chosen to surround myself.
“The Codependent Narcisisst Trap” is how the book is subtitled. After finishing the whole book, I chose to use the website of Lisa Romano, the woman named, near the end of the book, as having already figured all of this out on her own.
Through Lisa’s Vlogs and meditations, over time, I found myself having healed from the guilt, shame and fear that narcissism had endued on me.
Moving through my life feeling the benefits of my new found self love left me walking on air.
If you find yourself qualifying as a codependent, the person who gives far more than they take. The person who is concerned with the welfare of others more than with their own. A person who others may have called “too nice”.
Please give this book a read. You may, too, find the definition of yourself among these pages.
For over 50 years of my life I had been living in this trap. I had made an inward assumption that “I just was”. I believed I had every thing I needed to know to get through life until I discovered that I had not.
Follow this path, find yourself and, walk on air with me. You won’t regret it!
We hear you,
deMichelle
WIGT, WIGT….what I’m going through while I’m going through it
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