This situation is exhausting.
I never dreamed that I would very suddenly come full around to where this all began.
Did I hate being alone when I was 10, I don’t know. I don’t know what I felt because I knew I shouldn’t feel it. I know, whatever it was, it had not been processed.
I adhere to the theory that everything happens for a reason and, so, perhaps there’s a reason for this abandonment.
Perhaps I needed this blind reminder about what life used to be. Where I’ve come from. What was absent back then.
I know that I’m lost and lonely and I’ll never get past the word abandoned, I don’t know what to do with it all, now.
I think I should examine my feelings but, right now, I don’t really know that I have any feelings or, if I do, I’m inclined to have stuffed them down.
I don’t know. I guess that’s it. I’ll sit here and breathe until I figure out what should come next.
We hear you,
deMichelle
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